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2011 – 2012

May 20, 2012 in Daily Life, Love & Relationships, Random Thoughts

So after finishing season 5 of How I Met Your Mother, I started to reminisce about last year and this year.  I thought about how sluggish the past couple years felt.  How my relationship felt like it was never progressing or moving.  Then suddenly a big change in my life happens, both in my love and career life.

Last year, I was making nothing but pocket money.  It was embarrassing but it was my first job and I had to start somewhere.   Some probably wondered why  I even took that sort of job when I had the education to take a better position.  A part of me wanted the experience of going through blue collared jobs and a part of me wanted work immediately.  I also went through many office/retail related interviews and I was clearly not ready or not the type of person to work in that work environment.  When I started my first job, I was proud of what I did and made regardless.  Instead of staying home and do nothing, I enjoyed walking every morning to work, punching in, and getting work done.  I saved every paycheck and refused to recklessly spend it on things I wanted.  I wanted to save the money for my future, for my marriage, for my kids, etc.  It was my only reason for working…. saving money for the people I love.  Slowly I began to lose motivation to work because of how my relationship became.  It’s like how my teacher described one of my student’s behavior:  an abuse relationship that will never learn.  It’s like how one of the season 5 episodes ended with Ted saying that he’s this type of guy that likes to call right away when a girl gives him a number.  Some girls wouldn’t like that but that just means that those girls aren’t the one.  Instead of changing someone or yourself to become an ideal or expected way, it’s better they just accept you for the way you are.  So as a result, my longest relationship finally came to an end and a new beginning started.

Most of the money I saved within those 6 months at my first job was spent on my Christmas trip to NY.  It was a sacrifice and a risk I made that became a new changing point in my life.  I also was offered a new job to work at a school with special ed kids.  So the last couple episodes of my tv show talked about how a series of small events led up to the main character finding his perfect match.  Like if a certain thing didn’t happen, another chain of events wouldn’t have happen.  I started to say things like if I didn’t take my first job and saved all my paychecks for my future, I wouldn’t have had enough money to go on that trip to NY.  That so called “blue collar” job helped me meet up with the one person I might be with for the rest of my life.  That’s why I feel that every moment of every day of our life is precious since it could lead to a series of changes within your life or someone elses’… no matter how small the action is.

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5 Weeks

May 13, 2012 in Love & Relationships

I had thought that I would have to wait a year but it seems like I only have to wait 5 more weeks.  6 months nearly flew by so quick and I hope it’s just the same for Christmas.  Right now, I’m counting down the days and praying they go by quickly but not the days when I go see my hun.  I’m also so happy that I got the promotion because it’s REALLY  helping me pay for the trip expenses.  Right now, to me, money is not a huge issue.  I don’t know where I’ll be in the future, but I do know who I want to be with.

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Despite

May 6, 2012 in Daily Life, Random Thoughts

Things are starting to look up… at least I think they are.

I’ve been offer a temporary (I know, sounds weird to call it temporary) promotion at work that should be in effect immediately.  I feel somewhat excited knowing that I will be getting more hours and more pay, but it also means I will be holding more responsibility in my job.  I know it’s something I already do anyways, but this time it’s something I have to do.  My biggest worry in terms of “advancing” is that I wouldn’t do a great job at it.  I think that’s what most people worry about whenever they get offered a promotion.  However when I’m on the other side of the fence seeing them worry, I just tell them that if they get offered a promotion, that means there are people that believe they CAN do the job.  Now I find it funny being on the other side of the fence and seeing myself say the very same thing to myself.  Right now I just need to be positive and believe in myself.  Whatever happens, happens.  It’s an experience…. and a preparation for my future if I ever have rowdy kids.

I’ve come a long way in this job and I feel that it’s giving me valuable life experience raising children.  I just know that it’s not a job I want to do for the rest of my life because I know it will eventually hit me mentally.  Right now, I love my job because of the paid seasonal breaks and decent hours/benefits.  I”m saving up again to see my sweetheart so it helps to be given these breaks throughout the year.

Right now…. I’m just looking forward to my summer break.  It’s gonna be one of the longest breaks so WOOT~ I really hope… I… can make the best out of it.